Monday, May 31, 2010


Well, I got a chance to go meet my new niece briefly this weekend. She kept our hands so busy, we didn't get to take as many pictures as I would have liked. But I have uploaded a few.

Jason promises to have many more online soon. However, I don't think that's going to happen until he gets a full nights sleep in a few months. ;)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

And the big news is...

I'm an aunt!

Please welcome Savannah Joy Ayers to the family. Here she is with my proud baby brother.

More details to come

Monday, May 17, 2010

Struggling to find the words

Things have been quiet on my blog for awhile. This is partly because nothing really exciting has happened lately. (Although I hope to have some big news tomorrow; cross your fingers.) But it is also partly because I am still dealing with the death of Kendall.

I have been struggling with this voice in my head that keeps telling me enough time has passed and I should get on with life already. Well, yes, of course I am getting on with life. But my heart keeps yearning for that part of life that included Kendall, and I hate feeling that big hole left behind. I don't really know what the protocol is for this kind of scenario. I don't want to burden my other friends with what seems like a weakness on my part, but I also am too stubborn to just let go. How often is it appropriate to mention his name? What etiquette should be used to refer to his death? Should I force down my tears? Do I force myself to laugh more?

I don't believe there are any right or wrong answers. Really, it's about finding that balance that is right for me and my circle of friends and family. So this is my open letter to all of you -- I'm still grappling with these questions so if you have a suggestion/preference/comments/anything -- please let me know what you think.